Lyrics Ribbons

In the space of what we've been
You come looking for me then
How can I claim to know?
How can I claim to be prepared for what I think I know?
Committed to the truth that stings
I play the harlot with the lie that numbs
How can I claim to know?
I've played that scene inside my head enough to let it go

All these years
And I hang on this wire
And my hands are cut up just like ribbons now
And I wait for that call
Like a blow to my skull
He's been dying for so long a while
He can stop dying now
He can start living now

No one loves you more
No one knows me better
How can they claim to know?
Why we sink our teeth into each other
Not talk for years when we've lived together

And I'm downed
As I run for cover
To shoot a human life in the eye of a bullshit point
It's just another way for me not to deal
It's just another way for me not to feel
If I make you a ghost
You hardly seem real to me anymore

Murder lives inside my head
I'm guilty of this crime
'Cause I killed you
A hundred times
A thousand times
A hundred times
A hundred times
A thousand times
I killed you
To keep you alive
To keep you alive
To keep you alive